This is Me

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I'm only human,
I'm not perfect,
There are all these flaws,
Once always happy,

I use to cry all the time,
A coward and afraid,
I'd rather run and hide,
Pretend my problems weren't there,
Nothing but a cry baby,
Easy prey for everyone,

Then I grew my shell,
Turned cold and quiet,
Never spoke a word,
Felt out of place among others,
Felt like a stranger,
Even my family seemed an enemy,
I was nothing,
I was broken down and angry,

Next anger boiled over,
I still felt an outcast,
Lashed out at those who caused the suffer,
Always frustrated to tears,
Envious and jealous,
Felt broken and lost,

Then came the tolerance,
Came the realization,
I have great close friends,
A loving family,
Everything before had been stupid,
Should have learned long before,
Growing up at last,
Becoming who I should have been,

My former glow returns,
I have my beliefs,
I have my courage,
I have my family and friends,
I'm still quiet but tough,
I no longer cry,
All frustration and anger gone.

No more regret,
Trust of those I know,
Silent but strong,
No longer the cowardly person,
This is who I should be,
This is me

So no idea what compelled me to type this but little something I wanted to share. Just in short of what I've felt since I could remember since I was young to today, and quite honestly probably something I needed to bring out somewhere. And yes you can say whatever feedback you want, positive or negative, but I don't regret sharing this at all.